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since 15 august 2009
 
 

 tomorrow's the day.
i had a couple of nightmares about it. scary much. but i'm soooooooo thankful my cuppycake's gonna be with me. & i'm more than glad i've a boyfriend like him who's always there for me through my ups and downs. my pillar of strength. really.

ShaneeeBoyyy! says: (11:52:19 PM)

always.
ShaneeeBoyyy! says: (11:53:04 PM)
and i'll always always. be your guide. and answers.

that meant the world to meeee! it's funny how it feels so sure that you're the one i wanna be with now, and forever. & it doesn't matter what others say or what my parents think because this love, is between you. and me. & i'm happy with the way it is, they don't know you, they don't know us and they don't know how special the love we share is no matter how much i try to explain or describe it. but it doesn't matter, cause all that matters is that we know it ourselves in our hearts & we're happy like that (:

& i saw a kid @ the supermarket today, & he's sooooo cute &&&....sighhhhhhhhh :(

 
cutie <3


i love my girlfriends. i love my boyfriend. i don't need to have alot of friends or people around me, i just need them & i'm contented (:

life throws shit at you, but it's only then do you see the people that matters most <3

& i'm superrrrrrrr dumb. I fell into a gutter just now cuz i didn't watch where i was walking, no, i wasn't staring at any guy, in fact, i was looking at my bbg omg, so stupid. my toe hurts damn bad now D:

*i wish i could slow down time a lil'.*

 
Happy 3rd month sweetheart! ♥

We've had our fair share of ups and downs and we've gone through so much more than most couples & i'm glad we're still going strong despite all that we've faced. I've said most of what i wanted to say to you personally so i guess i haven't got much to type here except the same few stuff. & i keep repeating them over and over again cause that's how i really feel about us & to me, you're like a first love, i've never felt this way before, never felt like that with anyone but you. & i know for sure that when i say i love you, i mean it to bits. i love you d (:
thanks for everything that you've given and done for me all this while. 3 months, & it's only just the beginning hun (:
hugs!

 
five minutes to four and i can't sleeeeeep!!! Best part, i've got to get my shit up at 11am and drag myself to that dreaded place for presentation later D:
I dread going to school, i get annoyed when it comes to taking buses cause all the irritants and weirdos always happen to take the same bus as me no matter where i go. or maybe i just get annoyed real easy these days. & the destination - school, just doesn't make it any better, i wonder if it's the dull grey classroom that's causing me to feel this way or all the lack of happy, energetic people around (cause all of us are drained dry thanks to P1) or if it's purely just me again. & my schedule's no fun :( the only fun that's happening this month are the upcoming birthday parties. even the photoshoots are growing to be a chore, & i wish some people would be more professional about it, gosh, the number of sick bastards adding me on msn ranges from the down right rude to the absolute desperate, where the hell is your god damned dignity and respect dickheads?! i swear, men are such assholes. &&& good-looking chaps who use their charm to toy with girls should seriously just burn.in.hell. jerkkkkks! 
K, i'm super grumpy now cause i still don't feel one bit sleepy & i'm considering not sleeping at all but i'll just die cause tomorrow's gonna be a long day, but tossing and turning in bed for 2 hours isn't helping one bit.
hmmm...just a thought, should i go back to church?
butttttt...i know i'll prolly just leave church again cause i can't deal with living a double life. i'd probably end up being one of those screwed up, hypocritical Christians who don't practice what they preach, and sin from monday to saturday and go to church to repent and ask for forgiveness and the whole cycle repeats all over. i know i won't be able to handle it. call it escapism, but ya, i can't live up to that life. i never did. HA!

 
So sunday's plan was initially midnight movie with the boy but there were no shows that night so we camped @ mac's for baby to watch his beloved Man U pit against Arsenal. I don't care if Arsenal lost 3-1 to Man U, i never really bothered bout soccer anyway buttttttt their captain's the sexxxxxxxxx. eyecandy! eyecandy! eyecandy!!
Cesc Fabregas, hello hot stuff!
heheheeeeeeee!

&&&
I h8 school. h8 school. h8 school.
Project 1's a pain in the ass. I'm sick and tired and running outta inspiration and motivation to do the damn designs for the damned handbook. & presentation's tomorrow, & i'm h8ing the thought of it. & school's 12-3 everyday but it's solely made up of waiting and waiting and then have a consultation that lasts 15 mins or so before i head out to lunch which is damn annoying. & i h8 dragging myself outta bed for school. & all my time's wasted on designing and more designing and it's really shitty. I haven't had the bloody time to meet up with the girls or meiqi & i haven't been spending much time with E either. &&& even wanting to meet the boy is tough cuz i'll have to spare a thought bout the spending time on school work instead. goshhhhh, school sucks school sucks school sucks ttm!
why the fuck am i even studying? i think studying is a waste of time cuz whatever we do, we're all gonna end up dead in the end. if only the society wouldn't judge by your level of education or how much cash you've got in your pockets. if only politics didn't exist and all men were equal. then we wouldn't have to study and slog our guts out for the big bucks, then we'd be able to enjoy life and wait to die. yay. how nice would that be compared to shitting through life and still, we die.
oh nuts, i h8 school. i h8 SGP. i h8 this life.

 hahaha. i swear you're so annoying b. but i loveeee youuuuu! :D

haha wth, 

funny ah boy? hahaha. you're so insane & that's why i love you even more!
ahh...what a way to start the day, waking up to the boy's text, telling me he's got something for me on acidlacedkisses. heeheeee, many many hearts to you beeeeeeeee! 

 oh oh oh, & my mac's hotcakes is hereeeee! awesome morning. awesome morning. awesome morning.
whee!

hi sweetie! you're in luck! because i miss you like helllllll, here's a lil' post to make you miss me too! HAHA.
kidding, i know you're already missing me right? right? righttt???
so anyway, this is for the cute boy in the pictures above cause he looks so cute everytime he reads sweet things that's meant for him, like this one! && he looks 124235435765x cuter when he smiles to himself while reading sugary sweet words about him (teehee!) & another zillion hearts for the cuteness when you point out his cuteness and he gets all squirmy and shyyyy. HAHAHA!

 
my boyfriend is annoying.
he never gets up on time.
he annoys the crap outta me when he leaves me to rot for hours and hours straight while he sleeps the day away.
he can't stop teasing me.
he keeps calling me fat.
he thinks he's really handsome.
he's milo! (HAHAHAHAHA!)
he plays dota like all other guys and that annoys almost every girlfriend.
he still hasn't bothered to clean up the hamster cage.
he can never save money.
he's selfishly killing himself with tar, tabacco, nicotine and whatever crap they put inside those sticks.
he can get damn mean.
he can make me feel insecure at times.
he's a lazy ass.
he isn't perfect.
he is extremely flawed.
he isn't rich.
he's not the smartest guy on earth.
he isn't drop-dead-model-kinda-gorgeous.
but he loves with an unexplainable love,
he is charming in every other way,
he has plenty of flaws that makes him uniquely him,
he is full of humour,
he never fails in bringing a smile to my face,
he's an awesome drummer,
he's not the best guitarist or singer but he plays and sings with his heart,
he has got sexy, veiny arms (HAHAHA!)
he has a hot body (HAHAHA x2!)

he is more sentimental than he appears to be.
he texts me everytime he wakes up,
he sends me goodnight messages everynight, 
he can be exxxxtreeemmeelyyy sweet sometimes,
he loves my fats (HAHAHAHAHA!),
he constantly tells me how much he loves me,
he's always assuring me when i feel insecure,
he looks adorable when he sleeps,
he gives me a kiss when i fall asleep at his place,
he is lovably insane,
but above all of that,
he loves me,
he feels the same way i do about us,
he stole my heart,
he's my boyfriend, and so much more.
he, is shane simon joseph.
& i love him the way he is
because the very person he is, loves the very person i am (:
teeheeee!!
love you baby!
hugs & kisses,
me!